the things i`d tell my 15 year old self
- high school is the best years of your life. you`d meet people who are absolutely amazing and they will complete these 4 years. you`ll spend every second with them and love it
- don`t take school too seriously. high school matters alright but a line of seven is not something to get sad about! you`ll do well, don`t worry
- fuck upcat
- your first boyfriend is an asshole. okay sure, you will learn a lot of shit from him (revenge and hatred, included) but he`s an ass and he`s not worth your time nor your tears. cheer up, baby love! don`t you worry, janine will be all ears listening to your sob pathetic story about how he replaced you over someone so tiny and stupid (literally)
- oj is a wonderful guy. he`ll teach you a lot of things you thought you already know. you`ll love him down to core and he`ll reciprocate everything back and give some more. he`s great, you`ll like him!
- appreciate his long commutes. lsgh to spcp is far
- do not worry about meeting his family. they`re all sorts of amazing and years from now, you`d be really close to them and love them like they`re your own. so that`s one thing to actually look forward to
- no, you do not want to take BS BIO
- STOP FUCKING EATING!!!! please do not discover the beauty of food because you will be unstoppable and blow like a fucking puff fish
- third year is the best year — you`ll be elected as class secretary. together with stef and nizel who will be the class vice president and treasurer respectively. it`ll be fun and being asked to get out of the room is actually one of the things you`ll get to remember regardless of how embarrassing it was at first! being seatmates with them will be a fun ride. cherish every single second. you`ll never get it back
- friendster is on its way out. get rid of it. multiply will be the next big thing and don`t delete it!
- things at home will start changing.. i don`t know if you have the power to undo the mess but you`ll be strong. and you will stay strong. :) you`re a great girl and you never ever have to doubt that
- never lose communication with your friends when you get to college
- you`ll be okay. i promise
I thought I understood it, that I could grasp it, but I didn’t, not really. Only the smudgeness of it; the pink-slippered, all-containered, semi-precious eagerness of it. I didn’t realize it would sometimes be more than whole, that the wholeness was a rather luxurious idea. Because it’s the halves that halve you in half. I didn’t know, don’t know, about the in-between bits; the gory bits of you, and the gory bits of me.
— Like Crazy (2011)
1135am
- ctrl a + backspace
- i have typed a handful of bullets and deleted it
- what is going on with me
- i am crazy
- my life is making me crazy
- the predicament i am in is making me crazy
- “strength will find you sooner that you ever though it would”
- i am so excited for you, my love
- lumier / luccio!
- i love you i love you i love you
- i have such great friends — you can depend on them, anytime anywhere! and i guess it`s something to smile about regardless of how awful i am feeling today
- philip philips is such a cutie! haha he resembles oj`s little cousin that i used to have a crush on
- “for a moment or two, the darkness doesn`t seem so bad”
- i finally have a line that explains exactly what i feel when you`re around. it`s the most wonderful feeling in the world and i`m not afraid that it`s only fleeting because it`s here to stay for a very, very long time (referring to prior bullet)
- i cannot wait to grow old and be free
- terrified of the weeks to come but it`ll be an enormous sigh if i overcome it alive
- “b” “yeah?” “will you marry me?”
- ritter sport joghurt and hazelnut + almonds are my new favorite chocolates in the world! reese`s peanut butter cups had that throne for a really long time. adios
- pardon me as i need careful explanation: how is it possible that ONE person — a single normal human being. with no extraordinary powers whatsoever — just change your whole day. is that fair to both parties? how can anyone be so powerful be in your life and change you to their whim?
When we hold each other, in the darkness, it doesn’t make the darkness go away. The bad things are still out there. The nightmares still walking. When we hold each other we feel not safe, but better. “It’s all right” we whisper, “I’m here, I love you.” and we lie: “I’ll never leave you.” For just a moment or two the darkness doesn’t seem so bad.
— Neil Gaiman, Neil Gaiman’s Midnight Days (via thresca)
